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Friday, February 1st, 2013
1:02 pm
Silly confession
During my 2ww I usually find I have a silly routine to help stall. First, early in the 2ww I punch in conception date into a due date calculator to imagine when my baby would be born if I were successful this cycle. 

Then, later during the 2ww I look at my calendar and imagine if I were successful how I'd tell my loved ones. Example: if I was to find out close to Christmas I'd wrap a photo of the positive test and give that away as gifts to some of them. Or include it with their gift. 

I imagined announcing it New Years day as a resolution to be a great mom to my baby on the way. 

Things like that

How does everyone else survive the 2ww? 

Current Mood: thoughtful
Monday, September 17th, 2007
7:19 pm
Im new to this community. I'm 23 years old. Here is the story. I always knew that I had fluid in my left fallopian tubes. In August I started to feel a pain in left side. So I went to my GYN and had a sonogram. The results showed my right tube looks bad. I had a HSG and was informed that both my tubes are full of fluid and that the only way for me to get pregnant is to have IVF. Since we weren't TTC we are dont't believe that we can't conceive naturally. So, now me and my SO are going to track my ovulation and try to conceive on our own. However, if no luck we are going to try IVF. I'm just looking for some support and just wondering what to expect during IVF.

Also is it normal to feel kinda broken?
Wednesday, March 28th, 2007
12:52 pm
Latest test results - holy crap
Cut for sensitivity.

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Sunday, January 21st, 2007
10:46 pm
Hi, my name is Dianne - I'm in my mid 30s, married for 2 1/2 years, and my hubby and I have been TTC since April 06. My doctor put me on Clomid, which I started last month. I'm currently on my 2nd month. I've been off the Pill since Sept 2005.

Does anyone have the same side affects as I do? Hot/Cold flashes, mood swings, headaches... I get these during the 5 days I take Clomid, and try to keep a positive attitude, but when ever AF comes around, I can't help but get disappointed, sad, etc.

It seems like everyone else around me has just had babies or is pregnant. My friends and family have had a total of 7 babies this year, and 5 more people in my family are pregnant.

Does anyone else have similar stories like this? And, if you're on Clomid, please share your stories (bad and good)!
Thursday, January 18th, 2007
3:46 pm
Fertilty Testing

I'm new to the community, so I suppose I will introduce myself first.  I am 27 in Ohio and have been married for over 5 years.  

We have been TTC for over 2 now with no success, not even a miscarriage.  I was taking ortho BC pills for 4 years, but have been off of them for 5 years.  My cycles are regular within a day or two. For more than a year I took vitamins and suppliments and followed to FAM program, also with no success.  I stopped the program as it was stressing me out.

I have had basic testing done with my GP (hormone testing and ultrasound of my uterus - everything ok) but I am unsure what step to take next on fertility testing.  All of my girlfriends and my sister-in-law all got pregnant very easily, so they are no help.  Any guidance would be great.
Wednesday, October 25th, 2006
5:44 pm
Hello all
I've had live journal for over 2 years now and just today I discovered the communities! I thought I had to be a paid member for them. So I am very happy :)


My name is Kristin, I am a month away from being 24, married to a wonderful man Andrew. No living children yet, just two doggies Bullet & Trigger (they're beagles).

Andrew and I got married in May of 2004. In September 2004 we found out that we were pregnant. We were estatic, unfortunatly we lost the baby at 7 weeks. That was very hard, still is. But we waited the typical "3 cycles" and started trying again. We got pregnant in April 2005, everything was going perfect with this pregnancy, we had check ups every 2 weeks (I'm high risk...more to follow), saw and heard the little heartbeat, but then at 11 weeks our precious ones heart beat had stopped. I opted for a D & C this time because we wanted to have genetic testing done to find out why this kept happening. Well I didn't just have a D&C, I had to have 2! In a 2 week time period, because the doctor didn't use and ultrasound machine the 1st time and so she missed some tissue. Anyway the testing came back and we found out that we had a girl, she had turners syndrome (if you're curious go to www.turners.com). We named our babies Kya Mae and Keyanna Dani, they mean "Diamond in the Sky" and "Living with Grace"

The grief only magnifys when month after month since our 2nd loss we have been unsuccessful at conceiving again. With our 2 pregnancies we got pregnant on our first try. Now its been over 17 months of trying. After having 2 60 day cycles last spring I saw my OB and she scared me with saying that there's a possibility that I may have developed Asherman's syndrome (www.ashermans.org) it's basically uterine scar tissue from an aggressive D&C!!!!!! But I couldn't afford to have and HSG done so she opted to do some blood work as I told her I was also gaining weight by looking at food. Well it turned out that I have PCOS. Lucky me :) She put me on 1500 mg of metformin and after 2 weeks I ovulated! Seemed like that was the answer to our not getting pregnant questions. But now it's been another 7 months on the met and still nothing. I feel great on the drug, I've lost some weight and I'm still ovulating regularly.

So since we're getting frustrated with failing at TTC, we've made an appointment with a reproductive endocrinologist (RE). Hopefully he can be helpful in getting more tests, and having Andrew tested as well. You see PCOS and multiple miscarriages isn't the only things stacked up against us...oh no that would be too easy; I've also got Factor V Leiden it's a bleeding disorder that requires me to be on blood thinners for life. When pregnant I switch to a shot form called Lovenox. Basically and EXTREMELY expensive bee sting-in-a-needle.

So why the need for joining several communities? Well as you may have read, we've got a lot going on. We are still very much grieving over our losses, we're still trying for a healthy baby, I've got loads of medical issues, and we're considering adoption. So I thought I'd kill several birds with one stone and post one "about me" entry. (sorry for the cliche...I wouldn't actually throw stones at birds)

The reason I decided to join communities is because while I like myspace, it is filled with friends from my past. Most of my friends have babies, 1,2,3 or 4 of them! I have a few who are going through infertility, or who've miscarried. But I still find myself feeling as if I am going through all of this alone (minus with my hubby of course). I just really have the need to be able to vent and discuss and comfort and be comforted by those who understand what I'm going through, without being told to "relax and it'll happen" etc.

So sorry I didn't post this "Friends Only" but being new I don't have many LJ friends yet, so add me :)

Current Mood: blah
Friday, October 13th, 2006
12:19 pm
Hey everyone

Hopefully this won’t come across as advertising, but I was invited to beta test this site you all might want to check out. It’s called www.lovehealz.com and is basically a mix between Myspace and eHarmony specifically for people with fertility issues and other illnesses. They said they are going to be donating millions of dollars to charities like the American Fertility Association and RESOLVE! That’s really why I wanted to post here.

It seems like they’re supporting a really great cause and could really use some additional opinions to make it work.

Here’s the beta code to sign up: RFBETA06
Hope to see you there!

Thursday, July 13th, 2006
10:06 pm
Hi everyone! I joined a little while ago but haven't introduced myself yet. My name is Starr and I have been ttc for about 10 yrs now. I was diagnosed with PCOS in April of 2001. I have recently started going to an RE (my husband finally got insurance that would cover part of the treatments) and we just went through our first month of treatment. I was put on Clomid but only got a follicle of 9. I'm scheduled for a D&C (haven't had a cycle since last year sometime) and then we are going to try another cycle of Clomid but double the dosage. I'm 29yrs old (20-10 on Tuesday). Not sure what else to say. Thanks for having me.

Current Mood: tired
Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
10:40 am
Well, I thought (hoped, prayed) that I was pregnant to the point of even making a baby ticker. But I just found out I am not.

I'm an older woman, late 30's. I have been TTC for a year. I can't afford the invitro options at all. I menstruate regularly (27-28 day cycle) and I do ovulate normally.
I've had kids before, all healthy with no problems. I had one abortion 9 years ago.
Could the abortion have messed me up inside somehow? I was also on Depo Provera for a year and I wonder if that ruined my fertility as well. I know as an older mother, that I have a decrease in fertility, but I am with the man of my dreams and we just want ONE more baby.

I have heard about a product called Ovulex. Has anyone tried that with any success?

Does anyone have any insights or ideas that could help us conceive?
Thursday, February 23rd, 2006
10:54 am
Hi ladies, I'm new to the group. I'm 35 and have been trying a year now. This past week I had my HSG and it was clear (good news!). Doc has put me on Clomid for 3-4 cycles...we'll see if it helps.

Just wanted to say hi!
Tuesday, September 7th, 2004
10:50 am
And the Verdict is....????


That's right, on Thursday, CD31, I started my period at 9PM! Yes, I figured I'd get it on CD31 because I ovulated late... I was most pissed off that it waited to come 'til 9 freakin' PM! GRRR!

So, yeah, not pregnant... no big deal.. I'm actually really excited that my period's already over, and as of tomorrow I will be trying to get back into my normal routine of going to the gym... eating right... etc...


WE'RE MOVING! Not right this second... actually you never know 'til after we go see the apartments we want to get tomorrow...

They're nice and new... we looked at apartments saturday.. and... well.. yada yada yada... I've got pics of the apartment we want and I'll write a whole entry about the situation with the pics.

I'm so sorry I had to leave y'all in suspense!!! I was so damn busy!

Thursday I started my period at night, went to sleep, friday I had a million things to do before going with hubby to the Projekt Revolution Concert (less than jake, the used, snoop dogg, korn, linkin' park, other little bands), and we were at the concert from like 2PM to 11PM.. I took pics on my camera phone, I can post those later too... Then saturday Hubby had traffic school so I spent the day cleaning, met him for lunch, then cleaned some more. Sunday Hubby took his friend to the Padre game (bday present to his friend) and my mom had a party for her friends birthday at her house which I had to go to all day... then hubby got home from the game sunday and we went up to his parents house... we were there 'til midnight... fun, huh? then monday I met up with old friends from high school, and then monday night our friends came over to watch the Padre game on our Hi Definition big screen... and this morning I had to wake up, miss my phone interview, and help my mother with the prevailing wage paperwork she had to get in today... and now I'm taking a break while she finds some papers that are missing... fun fun fun! I'll write an entry about the apartment we want later...



Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
9:28 am
Aunt Flo Update #4 hee x 3!!! :P


Today is officially CD31...

As of 9:21AM...

No Aunt flo still!

So, I'm still waiting... I haven't taken another pregnancy test yet. I'm trying to wait 'til I'm a week late, since I've already taken one since I've missed my period and one before I missed my period..

But, No period is still a good sign :D I need to clean up today because this guy might be coming to fix the air conditioning. We made an addition to our home, and the a/c works in there because it's seperate... But, the a/c in the living room, kitchen, bathroom & extra bedroom don't work! GRRR! It's so hot in there I can barely stand to take a shower in the bathroom because I start sweating right when I get our! So, a guy's supposed to be coming to fix it, my parents called him so I need to see if he's coming today or not because if he is I need to clean... with it being so hot in there I haven't cleaned in those area's, and hubby's been in there because he watches TV in the living room on his big screen and I watch TV in the bedroom next to the a/c that does work...

Ok yucky, I feel like I'm gonna puke.. maybe it's just the yucky morning breath taste in my mouth but I can't stand it so I'm gonna go!

I'll post if anything changes with Aunt flow!

I need heavy pregnancy praying today people! hee x 3!!! I've NEVER been later that day 31 of my cycle except ONE freakin' time when I stressed and it left for 2 weeks! If I don't get it today, then I don't know what the heck I'm gonna think! hee x 3!!!

I do have more I could write, but like I said... mouth... yucky... got to go!



Current Mood: anxious

Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
11:53 am
Another day... will she show???


Today is cycle day 30... will my period show? today's the 3rd day I should have gotten my period... as of 11:43AM, Aunt flo's still a no-show.

You know what's really weird? I actually feel like I already had my period in a way... like I haven't had ANY cramping this morning... and today would normally be my last day which is normally really light and not crampy...

but the days I'd normally have a heavy period I did have cramping, just not bad cramping like I normally get... I even got my infection, or what feels like an infection (it's like a mix of yeast/UT infection), which I normally start to get while I'm on my period... I get 'em a lot but they tend to go away soon after my period.. I probably should go to the doctor for them more, but I did go for the last one I got, and I got medicine and it went away the same as it normally does... they're annoying...

So, now I'm waiting to see what happens.. I should start my period tomorrow at the lastest... I've only been more than 4 days late once, and that was that last year towards the end of the year, and I was 2 weeks late, but it was from stressing because we bought a new car and then my dad got pissed at me and hubby and made us take the car back or else we'd basically be homeless and jobless! so, that was definately enough stress to set back my period...

now, I haven't been stressed... I mean we went on our texas trip but I didn't really stress about that, I even started packing like a week before we left so I wouldn't be stressed last minute...


I hate not knowing, ya know? Plus being 4 days late just sets us back 4 days for trying for the next cycle...

On another note... we found out that my insurance doesn't cover fertility services... AT ALL! So I need to call and find out what my appointment on the 9th of sept would cost... it's just a pap, and then I get a paper to take to the lab that has all the testing I need done on it.. and I get the cup for hubby's sperm too.. I'd like to at least get all the first test done because if it's some small hormone imbalance that's keeping us from getting pregnant I'd like to know... ya know? Or if it's hubby's sperm...

but hopefully hubby jacking off too much was the problem! hee x 3!!! 5 hours in between jacking off and having sex isn't much time to make good swimmers, ya know?

So yeah, there's my little update for today... If I get my period I'll make another update telling everyone than flo showed... if not, you probably won't see another entry today :D so, hope for no more entries! hee x 3!!!

By the way, thank you SOOOO much for all the encouraging notes! It really helps!



Current Mood: anxious

Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
11:16 am
The *TEST*


I got notes of people in suspense so I'll try to help with that! Although this may just add for more suspense! Hee x 3!!!

So, last night I was up 'til 5am, long story, we have a rat and it was RIGHT next to our bed... my side to be exact! hee x 3!!!

Anyways, I tested whenever the heck I woke up for a minute to pee... the test was...
Freakin' NEGATIVE!!!


I know, I'm freakin' pissed to..

now it's 11:08AM...

STILL no period...

BUT, then I remembered that the last time I ovulated on day 18 instead of 14-16, my cycle was like 31 days... or 30...

Which would mean, it's still early and that could be why I'm getting negative tests...

I've been having what feels like O-pains, not like painful like my period cramping is, just little twinges here and there, they'll be on the right for a while, then on the left for a while...

every night I've been sick.. like nausea... like I have to puke so bad, I just hate puking so much that I put it off... at first I thought it was from my vitamins because I take them before I go to bed... but last night I hadn't taken them yet and I still got it... and I had to run to the bathroom...

My nipples are still tender as hell, I barely touch them and it hurts so bad! BAH! I've had breast tenderness before my period, but never just REALLY bad nipple tenderness...

I've still got UTI/yeast infection signs... at first it was like a UTI and now it's feeling more like a yeast infection.. crap, might be both! hee x 3!!! I should make an appointment for that I just don't wanna be on my period when I go, so I'm trying to see what's happening with that...

And then Hubby's on my ass about if I'm pregnant or not still... called at 10:30 this morning to ask this time..

Between him and my mom it's driving me NUTS!!!

And then I think about all the nausea and nipple pain and stuff.. and I remember someone telling me a long time ago that if I'm having symptoms that there should be enough HCG in my system to pick that up on a test... so... I don't freakin' know what to think!

I'm so in between on things! I just want to KNOW already! Geeza!

So, did that help the suspense or make more? hee x 3!!!



Current Mood: annoyed

Monday, August 30th, 2004
10:14 am
The *DAY*


Today is the day... what day you may ask? The day that I either get my period or I don't! Hee x 3!!!

I'm normally not late, besides a few select stressed out times, so if I don't get it today it's a good sign that I am pregnant and I will test tomorrow.

Besides the fact that I had to hold back throwing up last night and a little bit this morning, I'd not getting my hopes up. I don't feel my period coming yet, but I didn't last month either 'til right when it came... So, we'll see what happens...

I've been bloated as hell and my nipples still hurt like a bitch, so if I am gonna get my period, it needs to come... NOW! Because I'm so tired of hurt nipples and my clothes barely fitting!

If I am pregnant, and that's why I'm bloated and my nipples hurt, of course I'll be joyful! hee x 3!!!

I just hate it! When I was in high school, my period would ALWAYS start right when I wake up... ever since I've been out it starts at random times during the day! GRRR! At least it's normally on time though! hee x 3!!!

What else?

Well, I woke up to a lovely call at 8:30 this morning...

from who???

My hubby...


He said "did I wake you up?"

and I said "yes"

and he said "oh"

and I said "what do you want?"

and he said "I was just calling to see if I'm a daddy"

Which made me feel bad! He wanted me to test today and I told him I just wanted to wait 'til I got my period...

I'm glad he's excited about trying to get pregnant, and he wants it so bad, I just don't want to let him down when I have to tell him! GRRR!

Anyways, enough babbling, I'll try and update when I do find out! Don't want to leave anyone in suspense.



Current Mood: anxious

Sunday, August 8th, 2004
12:02 am
I have wonder often if I have PCOS. Never have been tested for it. I am 24 years old, and have only been pregnant one time. I was 16 yo and it resulted in a horrible misscarriage. I got pregnant while on Birth Control. I was on the depo shot, and it was 2 weeks until I had to return for another shot when I misscarried. Then 2 years ago, I ended up in the hospital with a cyst bursting. 3 days worth of pain, no food, no drink, and bed ridden. I am have most of the symptoms. Irregular periods, high testosterone levels (hairy arms, excessive facial hair), over weight, stomach cramps durning sex, inverted nipples (I saw in one site that mentioned). I was just wondering, if anyone could help me and tell me if they think this could be the cause. I have been with with my husband 8 years, and been married to him 3 years. We haven't never concieved again. We use to type of protection. Is it possible to get back on BC and get pregnant, if you have PCOS. Or should it be avoided? We desperatly want children, but do not have the funds to follow through with adoption in an agency, or to follow with infertility speacialist.

Current Mood: curious
Thursday, July 8th, 2004
10:32 am
I found this community and it seems right up my alley (man, my grandmother says that.)

**** Warning in case any of this is TMI, for future reference, nothing is TMI for me***

Anyhow, My name is Ashley I will be 22 years old next month. I am engaged to my best friend of 3 years. We have been trying to have a baby since January of this year. I was on Ortho Tri Cyclen until January. We do not use protection obviously if we are trying to conceive so, that also means that he doesn't pull out. We have sex almost everyday. Not only because we are trying to have a baby. We have basically always been very sexually active with each other. About a year ago I had 2 leep proceedures done because I have HPV. I am fine now. Basically for those of you that don't know, a LEEP procedure is a when a doctor uses a tool to remove the top layer of cells from your cervix. This is done if a pap smear comes back irregular. This proceedure is done to prevent cervical cancer and is actually quite common. My last appt with my obyn was in january and everything was fine then. My OBGYN is the same guy that pulled me out of my mom. I find been to others but I always end up going back to him because he is very straight forward. I refuse to inform him that we are trying to conceive because he is very old fashioned and I know that he would look down on me for not being married yet and also for being so young.

NOW, I dont really know how this site works but I am going to post my nine million questions.

We have been trying for 7 months now. Seriously, how long does this take. I am certain that we have been having sex at the right times. I monitor my body temp, taking vitamins high in folic acid and everything. How long does this typically take?

I used to get my period every 26 days. Last month it came on the 30th day. Today is the 30th day and I am praying that it doesn't come. I generally get pms attacks (horrible mood swings) about 2 weeks before I get my period. If I got it this month does that mean that I have no chance at becoming pregnant?

How long have you ladies been trying to conceive?

Also, any tips from any of you would be greatly appreciated.

It is so nice to know that there is a community here for me to vent and ask questions. Good luck to all of you!!
Monday, May 24th, 2004
11:12 am
I am not goign to work tomorrow because I a meeting with my MD to go over all my tests and get my meds started for the PCOS. I am actually looking forward to it. I want to know everything. BUt today I have to get some info on my own so I can understand all the blood test results. Does anyone know a website that explains blood test results and gives normal ranges?
Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
4:43 am
Hi "again"
Hey ladies... I don't know how many of you were in here when I was a member under my lj adgam_ga... well I made a new lj for myself that will be a "dedicated" TTC journal.

Anyway... Hi ... I'm back. :o)
Tuesday, April 20th, 2004
11:23 pm
The past couple of days have been an emotional roller coaster from hell. WIth the wif spotting on and off, and kind of crampy, we think that it was a failure, even with 5 embryos to put back, and then some piece of information will give us back a little hope. And then, go back and start over, repeat until blood test results come in.

It's like doing emotional push ups, each one becoming more challenging, and wearing. I have been both very manic, and moody, and angry. I am still praying for a positive blood test, but again, see above. Another push up.... repeat, ad nauseum.
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